Dear 100 Hour Board,
For each of your current classes, on a scale of one to 10, how would you rank your 1) aptitude/competence, and 2) willingness/motivation ?
MSB 491R (Social Innovation Project) - A/C: 7 M: 5. I get to use a lot of my skills and I think the concept of the course is AWESOME, but my project has been mostly repetitive research. It's been a bit bland, and I'm the team lead which is... somethin' else.
REL C 200 - A/C: 9-10 M: 5. This class is super opinion/policy based and I don't like that very much. It's super easy, but I don't prefer to spend a lot of time on it.
SOC 310 - A/C: 8.5 - 9 M: 8 I love most things about this class except for having to meet with a study group, and sometimes the weekly 2-page journal entries are a bore.
SOC 326 - A/C: 8? M: 7-8 It doesn't FEEL like I know what I'm doing because the organization of the class makes no sense to me, but I have like 99.5% because I try hard so...
SOC 360 - A/C: 8 M: 10 I love this class. I'm super excited to write the final project, I've enjoyed studying for it, the readings are great, and I wish I had more time to dedicate to working this class. The professor is awesome and funny and I don't have anything bad to say about this course...
Stat 123 TA - A/C: 5 M: 2. Why did I get selected to TA for this class? I don't know. I did good in the class but that doesn't mean I have ANY idea what's going on... I feel so incompetent and planning extra time in my week to grade assignments and help students that know basically just as much as I do is pretty stressful.
So pretty much, I feel the most competent at my SOC classes and also am the most motivated to do well in them. No surprise there...
My aptitude/competence can (like most things) best be described through graphs made in Microsoft Paint.
As you can see here, I've been learning and growing continuously this semester. I've acquired skills and learned valuable tools. I'm a better engineer than I was a couple months ago.
Unfortunately, as you can see here, I am behind. This is bad because grades are a thing for grad school applications. So I need to close that little gap right there or I will be in trouble.
The real issue though, is my motivation. As you can see my motivation has dive-bombed in a glorious fireball of despair. I am already done with the semester, but the semester isn't done. Whelp. I've got two weeks to close that gap and little motivation to do so.
But don't worry! There's little more motivating than imminent destruction! As a matter of fact, the only thing more motivating is hope. And thankfully, with the semester about to end, my hope and faith in the glorious rest of summer has been pushing me along. There is a light at the end of the tunnel (The light is fire. The tunnel is on fire. But at least there's a light). Hang in there folks! We've got this! Almost free!
STAC 109 (yoga): 8 and 10
MATH 404: eh, really depends on the day (the mechanics of neural nets are currently escaping me) but probably around 7. And then motivation's like 3.
MATH 405: 8 and 2.
MATH 438: 5 or 6 cause I still can't solve PDE's (unless I have the option of deriving a finite difference scheme to solve it numerically) and that last midterm really killed both me and the entire class. Motivation's currently at about 3.
MATH 439: 8 and 10. Motivation is high because all work for the class has already been completed, and I haven't had to either attend class, or do any homework for a couple weeks now. Nor will I have to do literally anything for this class for the remainder of the semester (my motivation to do nothing is super high, guys).
MATH 495R: 10 (I mean, I accomplished the goal of the class in real life, so I'm going to take that as a win) and 1 for motivation.
REL C 351 (World Religions): 8 and 5.
ENGL 312 (Persuasive Writing): 8 and 5.
A quick note on my aptitude/competence levels: I view a 10 to be absolute perfection in an entire subject. Even if aspects of a subject go beyond the scope of a single class, I still wouldn't give myself a 10 unless I had attained an incredibly deep knowledge/understanding of everything taught, along with solid intuition on how it generalizes to new contexts. Even for yoga, as I cannot do every pose perfectly, I don't feel like I can give myself a 10.