"I would do it, but I'm paralyzed with not caring very much." - Spike
Question #93055 posted on 05/14/2020 12:39 p.m.
Q:

Frère Rubik,

ARE YOU STILL AROUND?

-My name here

A:

Dear Myna Mehere,

Yes! And no. Both?

I graduated from BYU in April of 2018, and meant to retire sometime over the summer...but then I didn't. It's hard to let go of the Board, guys! Even if you, like me, do not engage with it as much as you used to.

Then fall of 2018 came around, I started taking the GRE and applying to grad schools (turns out just a physics bachelor's degree is not super helpful in getting a job, especially if you didn't bother to try and get an internship during your five years as an undergrad. Who could have forseen this shocking revelation?). Then 2019 rolled around, and I started hearing back from some schools, and by...March (I think?), I had decided I was headed back to BYU for a Master's in Electrical Engineering. At that point it had been nearly a year since I'd graduated...but I was headed back to BYU, right? So wouldn't it make more sense just to stay on instead of going through all the hassle of re-applying?

And here we are now, another year later. I've finished my first two semesters of my Master's degree and I've barely interacted with the Board at all. I feel guilty about it pretty frequently, but as of yet that guilt hasn't driven me to do anything more than occasionally log in and answer a couple of questions that don't take up much time. It's weird; during my undergraduate years, the Board was hugely important to me, and I spent a considerable amount of my free time working on it. Now, the Board doesn't necessarily feel less important, but there are other things that have moved into my life that feel just as important (if not more so), and so...well, yeah, I've let the Board slip by a lot (plus, you know, graduate school is actually pretty time consuming; I have mad respect for Sheebs, who somehow was pumping out amazing Board content at the same time she was doing all of her coursework and research and whatnot).

As of right now, I still don't feel quite ready to leave; in my head I'm not really doing anyone any harm by quietly chilling in the background. That's just me, though: if any of the editors (or any of the readers, to be honest) feel that my continued presence is a detriment to the Board, I'll definitely have to reconsider my situation and either recommit to this crazy, beautiful website or finally take my last bow.

So that's that! Thanks for thinking of me and reaching out; it means quite a lot.

-Frère Rubik

P.S. My Master's research is in Information Theory, which is a super fascinating subject that I was completely unaware of before I started graduate school. Had I known of its existence earlier, I probably would have made the switch to EE a long time ago.

P.P.S. I am going to try and do better in checking back in on the Board more often, but if anyone asks me a question and it goes a while without a response (like this one, for instance), feel free to shoot me an email to see what the holdup is. That's frere.rubik@theboard.byu.edu, if you need it.