Dear 100 Hour Board and alumni,
Is there anything on your mind that you'd like to say?
-My Name Here
I have a LOT of things on my mind. For now, I'd just like to say that I think the Church's response to the racial conversation is SUPER disappointing.
The videos they posted aren't productive at all, and from a mental health position, telling people not to be angry seems like a really bad take considering the protests are about Black people being murdered by police.
Also, the NAACP totally called the Church out for being performative about their allyship. We say a lot about "being one" but it's pretty obvious we aren't doing very much as an institution to make it happen. It all feels very color-blind and problematic and considering our racial history. For a church that talks so much about repentance (and the steps to get there including confession and *cough* RESTITUTION), this is pretty hypocritical and embarrassing.
The videos also seem like they're giving people a cop-out. Instead of trying to educate themselves about racial issues, people wait for the Church to say something. I have so many people I know who haven't said anything, but they've reposted the videos as if that means anything at all. I'm seeing a lot of "the only true way to experience peace and happiness is by living the principles of the Gospel" and that's GREAT, McKayleigh, but people are dying.
Telling people to keep the commandments isn't going to magically fix systemic racism.
I just scrubbed my shower and I'm here to demand that built-in pressure washers come standard with all showers so you can just blast them clean after using them.
It's my birthday tomorrow, and I'm starting to feel so... old. With all the reflection questions that are being asked, it's made me realize that I'm pretty much the same as I was exactly a year ago. For several years previous to this one, the person I am as I turn a year older has been a fundamentally changed one. The added number to my age was a testament of growth. And now I feel like I'm drifting along in monotony as my life slowly withers.
Soviet animators made a version of Winnie the Pooh and it's fantastic.
This isn't really anything so much as a stream of thoughts but in the past few days, my grandma got put on hospice care, my mom's close friend passed away of terminal cancer, and a woman in my family's ward who my mom used to visit teach died suddenly in a bicycle accident. I've realized that I don't know how to process death or grief. The only person close to me who has died until this point was my great-grandma, but I was a lot younger and my religious beliefs were more... certain, I guess? Not that I don't believe in God or an afterlife now but sometimes when I pray, it feels like God isn't there and it scares me because what if he isn't? What if there isn't anything after death? What if when we lose people, we lose them forever? I feel scared and sad and unable to really feel all at once, as well as heartbroken for my parents (especially my mom, as this has been a really hard week for her with losing two people who were close to her).
This isn't anything thought provoking or deep. But I was talking to Carl earlier yesterday and I had this random fact come to memory. If you scan the barcode on a Book of Mormon at Smith's/Kroger, it acts like a Smith's card. One of my mission companions showed me this trick at a random Kroger while we were shopping and my mind was blown.
I would have loved to have gotten the full version of Chidi's philosopher's rap.