My heart aches for you. At times in my life, I have felt that way as well. Sometimes it is a sense of emptiness. Other times it feels like you can live your life and it doesn't matter so much... but I always came back to an aching to feel like God knew me and was proud of me. How could it come so easily to other people and not to me right now? All unsettling, all leading to many days of tears. There are a few things that help me feel like God loves me.
1) My love for other people. I really feel like I have this inexplicable compulsion to be compassionate. I'm not perfect, but there is just this strange pull in me that powers my love of sociology, my pain at the suffering of others. Sometimes, it's so overwhelming it brings me to tears. The amount of love I feel towards my fellow human beings of all shapes, sizes, colors, religions, cultures, and nationalities feels like it comes from a source larger than myself. If I feel that way toward other people, experiencing only a small portion of what feels like infinite love, I can only imagine how God must feel towards me... even if sometimes I can't feel it directly. I think I know it's there.
2) The love and kindness other people show me. When others take the time to help me, talk to me, calm me down, bring me food, hang out, give me advice... I feel loved. Not just by those people, either. There's an environment of love all around me. It changes the way I see things. I feel like God is in all things, so God can be in the way I feel love... therefore, They love me. Call me naive if you want, but I also feel like there has to be some level of guidance in the world to put me with Pebble. I just feel like even in the midst of stress and hardship, there are things and people in my way that help me feel like God is extending Their love to me.
3) The planet. I just feel like a heartless, mindless, cold, calculated, purely physical and nonspiritual universe couldn't make the planet we live on so beautiful and intricate. Maybe you think so, but it just doesn't make sense to me. I've traveled a decent amount. I hike a lot. I wake up early enough to see the sunrises. I just... I see the world we live in and I feel like there has to be some kind of organizing force out there that contains the capacity to love, otherwise, what's the purpose of the beauty in the world? It didn't have to be this way. Regardless of the truth of it, the beauty of nature makes me feel loved by God in some definition.
The other thing I think is important to remember is that sometimes the way we talk about and define things limits our true understanding of them. We talk about God in a way that is limited to a body that looks and acts like a human body, because that's what we are familiar with. But God isn't limited by our definitions of Them/Him/whatever. If you are struggling to find love within the Church's cultural definition of God, try to release yourself from those bounds. God is bigger and better than we can comprehend or describe. I personally believe that all of the unifying forces of love and humanity and goodness and beauty that exist in the world and the universe count as God's love. We even say "God is love" but love is just a feeling, right? It's just an idea... to me, that saying means that all love is God's love, somehow, someway. Figure out what "feeling God's love" means to you. It doesn't have to mean that you feel some type of 'personified presence' or that love only feels like the way you feel love from your parents, siblings, friends or SO.
I hope that helps you. I love you!